18 years ago, I was wheeled into the ER with a BP of 220/180 and a loss of vision. I didn't know what was wrong with me. I'd been feeling sick for a while, but I just wasn't sure. So when I was told after numerous tests that I had End Stage Kidney Failure and that I'd need dialysis for the rest of my life, or I could eventually get a kidney transplant, I was... floored.
I was 24. My interests were playing guitar, writing music, hanging out and finishing up college. I wasn't prepared for this life.
But, I've lived it. For 18 years. I've endured years of dialysis, two failed kidney transplants and now a third which we all have great hope for.
What a strange life I've lived.
Yeah. I'm sad and lonely this New Years Eve. It's the first I have spent alone in 14 years. Hopefully things will get better. I've been down before on New Years.. but not out.
I'm not out yet. The world is still mine.
Stay strong. Things will definitely turn out well for u. Don't worry. And Happy New Year! 🙂
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