Now, looking to the future and the possibility it holds.... it's not as easy as some (including myself) may have thought. You get the gift, and all of a sudden all the things you put aside just to survive come flooding back. I've spent the past 10 years being a patient, and just fighting to stay alive... to maybe make it to someday. Actually getting to think about the future... and wondering what the hell really happened the last 10 years.... now I'm battling monsters and gazing into that abyss, and all the Nietzsche I may have read doesn't mean a damn thing.
I makes me wonder what life is like for someone who suddenly comes to after being in a coma for years.
I feel like I've been watching life for 10 years, and now I'm suddenly living it, and holy hell, is it hard. I'm more impressed with people that deal with existence well on a daily basis. Lord knows I'm not.