So, I guess I had kind of a moment where I realized I've got a bit of, well, perhaps some kind of post-traumatic stress. I was trying to recall the year 2008 - and I honestly couldn't recall much of it. It's very odd - it's like there's a block on my memories. Very akin to a dark cloud or even a blur.... which is odd for me. My mind has always been my greatest asset, and it's always been relatively sharp.
And as I probed this in my thoughts, I realized - I have a hard time remember many details from between 2006 to now.
You know, I can only imagine what other people go through when they survive some kind of ordeal. There's millions of people who have endured worse than I have, and I can only imagine what it's like inside their head.
I can surmise, based on my own experiences, that it's confusing, scary and definitely stressful. This is something I think I'm really going to have to work on in the next year. I put a lot aside to deal with what I had to, and now when I think of the time - I think all the emotions I didn't let myself feel are slowly leaking out.
There's some changes coming in my life - my wife and I are moving into a new home, my business is beginning to take off.... I just hope that I can continue to keep living a life of quality, harmony and happiness. Because, honestly, there's some dark times in my head - in spite of all the good. But I do love and believe in the good, and I think that's the first step.