The Adventures of Kidney Boy

A Journal About Living With End Stage Renal Disease. Dialysis. Transplants. Love. Family. Friends. The Unsung Donor. This is my life, from the end of a needle to the bottom of a pill bottle.

Wednesday, September 23, 2020

Four months in...

 I am still sad, though life goes on and I am more adjusted to my new life.  Every now and then I'm consumed with thoughts on a 14 year relationship that is no more - and how I have not moved on as easily she has seemed to.  I don't know how people do this so often.

This is honestly making me even more cynical than I already was, at least about interpersonal relationships.  It's just hard to keep a positive focus - but I am trying.  My future is so uncertain, and not all that great, but I'm going along.  Trying to be the best father I can be to my children - they are the sole source of true joy  in my life now, and I'm just so thankful that they're wonderful people.